At Tershelling, I barely though about the distance. The route was so beautiful and so challenging I just kept going until the moment I realised I was tired. That happened around Km 35. I didn’t feel any pain, just heavy legs and a general tiredness.
So I tried to look at thinks from the outside:
ISSUE NUMBER 1:
– I am tired.
– Why am I tired? Because I’ve been running for hours.
– Why am I FEELING tired? Probably because I lost my concentration.
ISSUE NUMBER 2:
– There are 15Km to go.
– Can I still run?: Yes, I guess.
– Is my desire to finish the race greater than my tiredness? Yes.
And I also though about everything I did in order to get ready for that moment and on how much I wanted to be there. I then focused on what had to be done at that moment and just kept going: one step after another.
Of course it wasn’t easy. It wasn’t supposed to be. Nobody runs ultra marathons because it’s easy. People do it because it’s hard – an usually as harder it is, the better!!!
After crossing the finish line and sitting down for a while I found Bas waiting for me. He said he was proud of me and I kind of believed this time!!! We then walked another 1,5Km to the place we were staying and where the dogs, apparently also proud, were waiting for us! I set down with them for a while, I thanked them for existing, for training with me and for being there and finally gave them their ID medals back – which I took with me along the race as a lucky charm.
This is a day I will never forget. I am an ultra (trail) runner now.
And I run on Vibram Five Fingers – Thanks to Steenbok Sport ( www.steenboksport.nl ).